I’m Awake

I’m Awake by Dawn Illsley

I’m awake.

Thinking of happy places.

Avoiding the dark ones.

The places I get lost in.

Some things I’ll never understand,

Including myself.

My reason for being.

Why hanging on is torture.

What torture?

Why Hang on?

When letting go is so much more,

When letting go is not giving in.

Giving in to what?

Maybe it’s destiny

Maybe it’s not.

Maybe it’s just right.

Destiny

Destiny

By Dawn Illsley

I’m trapped by my design

I’m programmed to retreat,

Into the caverns of my mind,

I regress, in defeat.

My destiny

Already written

My time drawing near.

When I look out my window

I see the world I’ve come to fear.

That branch on the tree

Seems frail like me,

It could break

At any moment

And fall

In defeat.

The world is different now

It’s a foreign place,

There is nothing left I know

I’m trapped here in this space.

There was a time

I was brave,

But not now,

I’m afraid.

I’m not sure

When to hide,

When to duck,

What to think.

The time has come

I’m ready now,

Please let me go,

I feel peace.

With my guns drawn

I escape,

This time,

I’m determined

to meet my fate.

Hostage

Held hostage

my thoughts are not my own.

Like a pantomime I go through space.

Controlled from afar.

The ties of a puppeteer constrict my breathing,

muffle my emotion.

I’m struggling against their force,

feeling the surge of power.

That power feeds my seeds of anger,

small growths that are blossoming

into a force that i’m fearful to use.

Cutting those ties means freedom,

a freedom I’ve been ignoring,

holding fast to the past.

Not wanting to go forward alone.

Those ties holding me are made of string, not steel.

They never gave me support, just a false sense of security.

They were never truly holding me, though I felt them.

Like a lie, I need to reveal them for what they are.

False hope, a manipulation of the truth into a fairytale,

only they can believe.

I will not be held hostage anymore.

I’m free.

Dawn

Louisbourg Day 3

So many great things today. Working at processing artifacts.
So beautiful! I love puzzles!

Got some fresh air when we checked out a few things around The Fortress.

After Volunteering I headed to Kennington Cove a popular beach nearby.

A truly glorious day!

Mahone Bay Adventure

Today was a grand day for gallavanting.  Sunny and hot.  I slept in and landed at Rebecca’s Restaurant at 1300.  My favorite destination for lunch in Mahone Bay.  The menu is always refreshing.  I had Sweet Potato soup, Shrimp and mushroom Risotto cakes with a side salad and for dessert traditional Nova Scotia Strawberry Shortcake.  It was made with the best tea biscuit I’ve had since my grandmother’s for sure.  The new location is brillant.  On Edgewater Street, it has loads of parking and seating.

Right Next door there is a newly opened shop, called Sprig Apothecary, it literally had at all my favourite things for sale.  Succulents, lotions, beautifying products, and pretty little pots.  So I added a little succulent to my growing indoor garden and some beauty products to pamper myself.  It was fun, like a day at the spa, my style.

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Down the way I stopped  at Have A Yarn, and found some new color ways.   It’s a new company RavensWood Fibre Co.  A local company!


Another new shop on Main is a sweet little interior design shop.  Here Nor There. I picked up a seagrass basket, and a macrama plant holder.  The plant holder I’ve been ages waiting for and it’s perfect.


I dropped in to Birdsall-Worthington Pottery for a gander and found beautiful hand made earrings.


Finally ended up at Peacocks Antiques and found some awesome vintage clothing, stay tuned for those outfits.  Including a perfect birthday dress for July.